Lonely days

I’m missing Dai a lot right now. He’s gone to visit his dad for a few weeks. I’m feeling really alone, everyone is busy. Not me. Danni is out of town too. Holly is working on something and hasn’t got time for anyone. So I spent the weekend alone. None of the chicks I usually hookup with are available. It was just me, my porn and a line of speed. I gotta find something better to do when I’m alone.

If Dai was here he’d tell me to stop being stupid and drag me off to do something fun. I dunno what I’d do without him.

After about months of seeing me in my brothers hand-me-down Dai asked if I ever bought my own clothes, “you know, ones that fit?” I’d never thought about it, I was so used to wearing Ben’s oversized cast offs. I asked Mother for some money to buy new clothes, she was a little surprised, but gave it to me, more than I’d expected. Dai took me shopping. I’ve never known anyone who can actually make shopping for clothes fun. Not like Dai. He dragged me through store after store, making me try stuff on and telling me what to buy. I’ve got no sense of style, I look good all thanks to Dai. Hes my fashion Guru.

Dai also helped me with my homework a lot. I never got any help at home. Mother worked all the time, Dad would just tell me to go look it up and Ben was busy with his own. After school I’d go to Dai’s house and he’d help me. We didn’t go to the same school. My parents wasted money by sending me to a posh school, and Dai’s folks couldn’t afford to send him to a better school. So at school I still had no friends, not until Dai started introducing me to the friends of his friends. Some went to my school. None of them were in my class, they were older or younger, but that didn’t matter, it meant there were people who went to my school who I could talk to. Danni is one of those people, she was the girlfriend of one of Dai’s friends. Actually Danni has been the girlfriend of a lot of guys, or just slept with them. Ok to tell the truth, I think she’s the town bike. And I ain’t going there! I had the opportunity years ago, I was still a virgin then, but I thought she had a boyfriend at the time (I don’t condone cheating) and turned her down. Now she’s too good a friend for me to ever consider bedding (that and I don’t know where she’s been).

Thanks to Dai, I actually had passing grades and had people to talk to at school.

Sometimes Dai came over to my house, I was always a bit embarrassed, at least to begin with. My family has money, and can be more than a bit snobby. Mother liked him immediately, probably because he was my only friend at the time and was the reason I was starting to dress better. Dad didn’t like him then and still doesn’t, probably because dad thought Dai was a girl. Its an easy mistake to make, he is rather pretty, and does wear girls clothes often, and a lot of makeup. Dad also thought Dai was short for Daisy.

When I was 16 we had a school dance. We were allowed to bring dates, I could have asked anyone of a number of girls, but Dai and I had a better plan. He would go as my date. He passes as a more than slightly pretty girl, although really flat-chested. He even bought a dress for the occasion, and got hair extensions. He looked like one of those overly pretty emo/scene girls. The boy is crazy.

There was a group of us who went to the dance together, they all knew who Dai really was, no one else did. I think that was the most fun I’ve ever had, that evening.

I can’t wait for Dai to get back, phones are a great way to keep in contact, but nothing beats a conversation in person.