Monday, April 20, 2009

What the hell would you do?

Dai and Danni are feuding, over me.
I really don’t know what to do. A couple of weeks ago Danni started flirting with me a lot more than she ever used to, and hitting on me. Its been making one hell of an awkward situation. I talked to Dai about it a couple of days ago, and he said that he’d noticed the change in her too, but didn’t want to say anything to her, cos shes a good friend… “how do you tell a friend to stop hitting on your boyfriend?”
So we thought, maybe, if we just ignored her she’d give up and stop. I wish.
Saturday night, we went out, everything seemed normal. But the more Danni drank, the more annoying she got. She started out just hugging me, not all that unusual, then she rubbing up against me, and trying to kiss me. Dai was watching her the whole time, and I could tell it was getting to him, if I didn’t do something he would. I got sick of dodging her kisses, and pushed her away, she pouted at me and tried again. I shoved her harder and said something like “Stop it, you’re making yourself look like an idiot”
She tried again, this time pushing me back into other people. I shoved her away again, “Danni, stop it. I DON’T WANT YOU.”
I didn’t give her another chance, I went straight to where Dai was. He grabbed me and kissed me, I was shaking, mostly from anger at Danni, but in part at myself for having to hurt her.
She was in tears, sitting on the floor. I hate myself for doing that to her. One of her other friends took her away. I haven’t seen her since.

Friday, April 17, 2009

Months have passed, and so much has happened
We ended up having to move again. The place where we were living was gonna be demolished. Danni came back, heart broken. The guy who she’d been with left her for someone else, he’d pretty much asked her to marry him. And people wonder why I don’t believe in marriage.
So now I live in a house, shared with Dai, Danni and another friend. Its good. Not so lonely. I’ve missed Danni, and Dai and I are as close as ever. Mmmm so very close. For the first ten or so days in the new place, we couldn’t keep off each other, we were both so fucking horny it was scary. It led to a lot of really good sex, and out other house mates telling us to keep the noise down. (Slightly embarrassing)

I'll update again soon.

Heres a poem to tide you over until then.

A life in words

Words, falling from the page
A new beginning, no end in sight
Ink stain bleeds through the fibre
Bluring the letters, losing the words

Ink black as night absorbs all light from the room
Paper pale but yellowed with age
Smudges of ink from stained fingers
Smudges of dust collected in age

Parchment torn to shreds in piles on the floor
A life of unimportant words
No meaning, no meaning, no purpose
Words falling through time
Space
Void
Nothing

Brittle pages swept in the wind, flying high
Ripped
Scattered
Lost

Words that represent a life, of deeds done, of love found
And lost
A life long gone, remembered by none
None but those who read the words