The tangled web

And yet I didn't get back to posting.
Why? Because my life fell apart.
Dai left me. He gave no reason. He didn't even take all his stuff.
I know that hes somewhat ok because he talks to Marie and Dani, and I've called Betty several times, just so I know he is ok.

I've ended up in another relationship almost straight away. I called a doctor who had given me his number a while back, for if I ever needed someone to talk to. He took me out for dinner, and I talked, and talked, and talked, until closing time. We went back to his place, because it was just around the corner, and I ended up sleeping with him, in every sense of the word. Not something I had intended, or even considered. But it happened, and maybe it was what I needed. And I thought that would be it, but no. It seems my charming self made him want more. And now I have a boyfriend who is in his early 30's who I think I am just using for sex. I like him, and its nice to feel wanted, but I'm not in love with him.

But I can't stop thinking about Dai, he still has my heart.

8 months and I'm such a slacker

So, what can I post to make myself not look so bad?
Perhaps a poem?


Slummin it, back to back
I'm here for you
But you know that.

You're there to lift me up
Rise me up
Out of the dust.

And even if you fall
I'll go back
No matter the cost.

Blood and sweat in the dirt.
I'm here for you
And you're there for me.

I haven't really done much writing of late, just a few poems. But my head is brimming with ideas, so, perhaps its time for me to start writing again.

I might manage a chapeter a week, with a little effort.