Some people accuse me of being a pessimist, but I dont think i am.
I see the world for what it is, nature is both beautiful and chaotic. nature is wild. Humans have taken that beauty, and raped it, and tamed it and chained it, tortured it and twisted it into a mockery of what it one was. People say "look at all the great things humans have done!" Yes, great, but at what expense?
Why do we do the things we do, why do we live this way? We're lazy and we're greedy, thats why. Everyone wants the biggest and the best. but why?
People think that i hate life and hate the world. I don't. I hate humanity, I hate the world we've created, but I love the wild chaotic beauty that is nature, I love her in all her moods. people think that deserts are dead, they're not, they're full of life, its just well hidden. i love the carnage of a zebra being torn apart by lions, creatures so bizarre that you'd think they're from a science fiction novel, weather that destroys everything in its path, but in such a short space of time life returns. I love the ever-changing face of this planet, constantly shifting coastlines, volcanoes that erupt and make new islands. Nature is bloody and violent, she gives life and takes it, nothing is wasted, life and death is an endless cycle.
I'm not quite the heartless bastard some people think i am. Love is rare and precious. Too many people throw the word around, without really caring about what they say, what they really mean. my love is reserved for those few who deserve it. I care about more than most people realise.
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Friday, July 10, 2009
I like to argue
It happens far to often, people take offense to my opinions.
On a forum, I got accused of having no respect for girls due to my attitude toward sex, and females in general.
this was my response:
i thought it was necessary to point out the opposites.
in my experience, a lot of chicks have just wanted me for sex.
and yes, there have been times when i've dumped chicks cos they wouldnt put out.
but what so many people arent getting, is how seriously fucked up i used to be. every single response, was what would have been my response about 2 years ago
From when i was 15 till about a year ago, i couldnt love, and when you cant love, you go for the next best thing, sex. just so you can feel something, so you can be with another human, so you dont feel alone
so call me a major dick, call me a jerk, call me whatever thing you want to
just know, sometimes theres a reason why people are like that, sometimes its not their fault, sometimes its desperation.
human contact is something we all need, but some of us are denied.
do you know what it is like to have your own parents ignore you?
to be continually left to play on your own, to have no friends? from age 2.
to have all the necessity, bar one: affection
i can count the times my mother has hugged me since infancy, and almost all of that has been in the last 12 months.
theres been a lot of girls that i tried to feel love for, but you cant make yourself love, it just leaves you feeling more empty and more hollow
so hate me, if it makes you feel better.
i'm not like that anymore.. not quite
i see women in two different ways now, as friends, or as sexual objects.
you see, i found what i needed elsewhere, i've got someone who i can treat like a princess.
i found love, in the most unexpected place, i fell for my best friend, a guy
so go ahead and hate me, if it makes you feel better
Its funny how peoples attitudes suddenly change when you point out their blindness.
they apologised
I accepted their appologies and let them know a little more about me
dont be too quick to judge people. we are the way we are for a reason
if my posts were scarcely legible, and my intent malicious, you'd have more reason to think what you did. But i try to make my posts readable. I'm not a malicious person. And i find that the world needs people like me. people who arent afraid to see the other side of things, people who have a vision of the world that is unclouded by what we wish it to be
On a forum, I got accused of having no respect for girls due to my attitude toward sex, and females in general.
this was my response:
i thought it was necessary to point out the opposites.
in my experience, a lot of chicks have just wanted me for sex.
and yes, there have been times when i've dumped chicks cos they wouldnt put out.
but what so many people arent getting, is how seriously fucked up i used to be. every single response, was what would have been my response about 2 years ago
From when i was 15 till about a year ago, i couldnt love, and when you cant love, you go for the next best thing, sex. just so you can feel something, so you can be with another human, so you dont feel alone
so call me a major dick, call me a jerk, call me whatever thing you want to
just know, sometimes theres a reason why people are like that, sometimes its not their fault, sometimes its desperation.
human contact is something we all need, but some of us are denied.
do you know what it is like to have your own parents ignore you?
to be continually left to play on your own, to have no friends? from age 2.
to have all the necessity, bar one: affection
i can count the times my mother has hugged me since infancy, and almost all of that has been in the last 12 months.
theres been a lot of girls that i tried to feel love for, but you cant make yourself love, it just leaves you feeling more empty and more hollow
so hate me, if it makes you feel better.
i'm not like that anymore.. not quite
i see women in two different ways now, as friends, or as sexual objects.
you see, i found what i needed elsewhere, i've got someone who i can treat like a princess.
i found love, in the most unexpected place, i fell for my best friend, a guy
so go ahead and hate me, if it makes you feel better
Its funny how peoples attitudes suddenly change when you point out their blindness.
they apologised
I accepted their appologies and let them know a little more about me
dont be too quick to judge people. we are the way we are for a reason
if my posts were scarcely legible, and my intent malicious, you'd have more reason to think what you did. But i try to make my posts readable. I'm not a malicious person. And i find that the world needs people like me. people who arent afraid to see the other side of things, people who have a vision of the world that is unclouded by what we wish it to be
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