You got your pacifism - I got survivalism

Some people accuse me of being a pessimist, but I dont think i am.
I see the world for what it is, nature is both beautiful and chaotic. nature is wild. Humans have taken that beauty, and raped it, and tamed it and chained it, tortured it and twisted it into a mockery of what it one was. People say "look at all the great things humans have done!" Yes, great, but at what expense?
Why do we do the things we do, why do we live this way? We're lazy and we're greedy, thats why. Everyone wants the biggest and the best. but why?
People think that i hate life and hate the world. I don't. I hate humanity, I hate the world we've created, but I love the wild chaotic beauty that is nature, I love her in all her moods. people think that deserts are dead, they're not, they're full of life, its just well hidden. i love the carnage of a zebra being torn apart by lions, creatures so bizarre that you'd think they're from a science fiction novel, weather that destroys everything in its path, but in such a short space of time life returns. I love the ever-changing face of this planet, constantly shifting coastlines, volcanoes that erupt and make new islands. Nature is bloody and violent, she gives life and takes it, nothing is wasted, life and death is an endless cycle.
I'm not quite the heartless bastard some people think i am. Love is rare and precious. Too many people throw the word around, without really caring about what they say, what they really mean. my love is reserved for those few who deserve it. I care about more than most people realise.